I have these days when sometimes I wake up with the peace of God surrounding me, like I’m drenched in it.  I love those days. The birds are chirping my favorite song. The kids get out of bed without me having to drag them. The husband is extra sweet with an extra spoonful of honey. The atmosphere in the house is set just right and I can hear the voice of God and feel his goodness in my coffee cup. Then on the other hand, there are days when it doesn’t matter how hard I try I just can’t seem to press into Gods arena. On those days my mind won’t be on God. I won’t feel like praying. I won’t feel like turning on any worship music. I just won’t feel like any of it.

I started to question my identity and my heart because if it was up to me I would like to be the Charday that lives in the glory all day every day. After dealing with this duality for a while and getting tired of it I sought God for help and answers and the answer came in the Push. I began to push everything aside in my life that was trying to exalt itself above God. That came largely with guarding my eye and ear gates. I had to get proactive about what I allowed myself to watch and listen too, but the kicker was doing this when I didn’t feel like it and had no desire too. That’s the push! I would open my bible and get some word in me even if only for 10 minutes. I may have really reaaally wanted to listen to my favorite trap R&B but I cut on some gospel instead. Even if only for a little while and then I would just go back to silence. Honestly, after doing all that sometimes I still wouldn’t feel any different. What I realized though is that building a lifestyle of pushing through to get to God creates a stability in Christ that brings strength and maturity into your faith walk. We must get to place in God where we stand firmly on Him as our foundation unwavering to things that wish to knock us off track. How can God trust us with our assignment and purpose if we don’t even have the muscle to stand on Him instead of our emotions. Our emotions are fickle and different things affect them. Sometimes it’s not even someone or something that’s happening to us. It could be lack of rest or hormones or a bad diet. Did you know that eating to much sugar sends a bad signal to the brain! Yes! It has even been linked to anxiety disorders and depression.

So regardless of what you feel don’t believe anything that goes against the word of God. Always push to put God in even if at that moment you kind of have to grit your teeth and work a little harder to do it. And by the way. This doesn’t ever completely stop. Not completely. We’ll always have to choose God. The bible says to choose this day who you will serve. We have to wake up each day with the tenacity and the tools to choose God. In this modern day of Christianity the fight has gotten watered down with church politics, egos, fantasy images of perfect lives plastered on Instagram and Facebook feeds. The truth that often times gets lost is the fact that we have an enemy who hates God and hates God’s people. He is looking for every opportunity to kill your purpose, steal your faith and destroy your assignment and your relationship with God. This is why we must push. As we do this the push becomes easier and easier and we will see the stability that we seek in Christ. We will live like adults and not like babes in the gospel. Its worth it and He is worth it.

Reference Study Scriptures

1 Peter 5:8

Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

2 Corinthians 10:5

Casting down imaginations and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;

Joshua 24:14-15

Now therefore fear the Lord and serve him in sincerity and in faithfulness. Put away the gods that your fathers served beyond the River and in Egypt and serve the Lord. And if it is evil in your eyes to serve the Lord, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods your father served in the region beyond the river, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you dwell. But as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.

Hebrews 11:6

But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him

1 Corinthians 3:1

And I, brethren, could not speak unto you as unto spiritual, but as unto carnal, even as unto babes in Christ.

I also want to leave you with some scriptural confessions.

Joshua 1:8 says,

This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall read and meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything in accordance with all that is written in it; for then you will make your way prosperous and then you will be successful.

CONFESSIONS

*I cover my mind and thoughts with the blood of Jesus.

*The weapons of my warfare are not carnal but mighty through the pulling down of strong holds. (2 Corinthians 10:4)

*Lord, cleanse my temple and drive out any thief from my life. (John 2:14-15)

*I bind and rebuke any demon that would try to block my way in the name of Jesus. (Isaiah 8:9)

*Let me have and walk in an excellent spirit. (Daniel 6:3)

*I break the power of all negative words spoken against my soul. (Psalms 109:20)

*Strengthen me with strength in my soul. (Psalms 138.3)

*Give me the spirit of revelation and wisdom in the knowledge of Jesus. (Ephesians 1:17)

*Strengthen me with your might and spirit in the inner man. (Ephesians 3:17-18)

*Let me approve things that are excellent, that I might be sincere and without offence until the day of Christ. (Philippians 1:10)

*The Lord is the strength of my Life. (Psalms 27)

*I bind and rebuke the spirit of double-mindedness in the name of Jesus. (James 1:8)

*I bind and rebuke every spirit that would attempt to distort, disturb, or disintegrate the development of my personality in the name of Jesus.

*Break off of my life any limitations and restrictions placed on my life by evil spirits in the name of Jesus.

These are just a few confessions that I pulled out of John Eckhart’s book, Prayers That Rout Demons. I strongly recommend this book to everyone. It will bless your whole life!

Everyday is not going to be perfect and were not always going to get it right. I know I don’t. As you push forward remember to give yourself grace and know that this is a journey not an arrival. As always, I hope that this blog helps you on your faith walk.

xoxo.