I’m not a person who holds on to things. Grudges, resentment, offense…I try to rid myself of these things a soon as possible because I don’t want any small foxes blocking my blessing. It’s not always easy. Sometimes I have to pray and release somethings or situations for weeks before I feel totally free from it but regardless I’m go let that thing go one way or another. I told my best friend one day that I all I want is peace, butterflies and Starbucks. I meant that! It’s so much easier to hear from God when your spirit is in a peaceful place and if I can hear from God on the regular, I’m winning.
It came as a surprise to me however, to hear God say to me just recently to pray about something that I have completely accepted and moved on from. I had to ask God again if He was really telling me to pray about this thing. When I was sure that He said it, I wanted to run and hide and act like I didn’t hear Him. I’m like, “God I’ve worked this hard to be free from this and accept that this relationship may never be what I want it to be and now You want me to pray for this to heal?!” I don’t want to. I don’t want to. I just want to let it be and keep on living, growing and doing me… but of course, I went ahead and prayed about it. I prayed and will continue to keep my heart in perfect peace while I allow God to do what He does.
What this has shown me is that God doesn’t just want us to cover our pain with lipstick and new attitudes. He doesn’t just want us to accept it. He wants us to be totally healed and some situations He wants to completely restore. If we can just take our hands off of it, give it to God and keep being who He has called us to be in the process, He’s going to take care of it. We put too much pressure on ourselves to make things right, but somethings we simply can’t fix with our human effort and end up making things worse and little scraps end up feeling like emotional stab wounds. We have to let go and trust that God will do what needs to be done. He sees. He hears. He knows what’s bleeding and He won’t just cover it with a Band-Aid. He’s going to heal it.
It amazes me that He cares so much about us that He goes into our secret hidden places to restore, heal, and redecorate those ugly spaces. Just because we have given up on something that doesn’t mean that He has. He is ministering wholeness, healing and purpose into our lives at all times. He is going to complete the good work that He started in each of us, leaving no stone unturned.